Ageing is a privilege! Full stop! Period!
Recently we have heard of and known many stunning souls being taken too soon from this earth, and so today Shelby and I were reflecting upon the cycles of life. Why is it that older people stop and chat to beautiful Ollie, while younger people walk by?
Becoming a Glamma raises many emotions and feelings, for one, it's a clear sign you ain't no spring chicken anymore. And honestly, it's also a sign your mortality is a little bit closer which, makes you stop and take check. ‘Am I where I thought I'd be in life by now?’ As the months count down to my 50th birthday, I see age as a privilege, and honestly, looking back, I'd never want to be the younger, less wise and often ‘spazzie’ version on myself again! 🤣🤦‍♀️😂 Now, I have the joy and delight of falling deeply into unconditional love all over again with my little grandson Ollie, that is a privilege that only comes with age. #unconditionallove❤️ #glamma nevertakelifeforgranted #ageisaprivilege #deborahmurtagh #tksdiet #ketogenicswitch ...

Meet my grandson Ollie. When life is so busy and you are pulled in a million different directions, it’s easy to forget what’s most important to us. Boundaries are so important especially when your life is so full. I’ve always been great at boundaries but they can ruffle some feathers and I’ve learned that’s okay. Life is about the sacred times and spaces you create and the memories you make. As a woman that works long hours and has many demands, my job is never done. And that’s okay. Some times we have to retreat regardless and ensure that we know that love is what fulfils us and brings us the most joyous of moments in the midst of life’s storms. When did you last take a breath and focused simply on love? Our to-do lists will never all be ticked off. But that’s not what you’ll remember in the end. Some times we have to let go and remember the true meaning of life and why it is we strive so hard in life, it’s about the little things and in my case, this little soul, who matters most to me right here and now. My to-do lists will be there tomorrow. #priorities #newlife #ketogenicswitch ...

I admit it... I fell apart... Last week a bomb was dropped on my personal life! My darling partner Eric got a call from back home in the States, to hear that his mother has stage four brain cancer. She had been receiving radiation for lung cancer over the past 6 months and 40% of lung cancers metastasise to the brain, and sadly, this happened to her.

Our life was pretty close to perfect. We got Eric’s 2-year visa to stay in New Zealand, he had started a full-time job which he was really enjoying, we were starting to make lovely friends and our social calendar was filling up. We had loads to look forward to over the coming months and with the firewood stacked we were excited that winter was on its way and looking forward to the first snow of the year.

Then BAM! Everything turned on its head, our world tipped upside down and we had just a couple of days to make a plan for him to get home to Florida and plan how we would manage everything.

I admit I was a total mess! I didn’t handle it well at all in those first hours as this was unfolding. My emotions were all over the place. It triggered anxiety and fear and brought up a lot of my past trauma of abandonment and many other things. I’m nearly 50 and yet I still regress sometimes into my 7-year-old. Just when you think you’re over something, another test arises!

So, we moved my Mother’s Day to Saturday and Eric took my daughter and Deb and me to Millbrook for a glorious brunch, then we stopped off at the Shotover bridge to paddle our feet in the crystal-clear water.

What’s the lesson here? Sometimes trauma never leaves, but you do learn to manage it. Each time something triggers an emotional response from the past, you get another opportunity to react slightly differently than the time before. It’s about working through the layers.

Yes, I’m a human, we all are, and it’s messy! When situations like this arise and it brings up ‘stuff’ it takes some time to process and recognise it’s just that, ‘stuff’!
Read my full blog here: https://deborahmurtagh.com/the-gift-of-change-i-admit-it-i-fell-apart/ ...